Saturday, July 05, 2008
oops i accidentally made it medium size?
disgusting bt heck.
one hungry night. yummy..i miss tht.
he wanted my chips. btw i like this chips.
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my mum has a wierd sense of humour.
ask her to go grocery shopping on her own..
she buys th cat's food n my cornflakes th same.
it's ghost. i dno who she is. bt i took this w my hp.
can u even see her? she's standing at th top right.
is he gay too?
Saturday, June 28, 2008
episode: the woman in white aka constance welch.
starring sarah shahi as constance welch.
shiet she looks damn scary bt hot.
i want to watch bt i hv absolutely no guts.
i read th synopsis, damn interesting n scary.
supernatural is a damn scary show lah.
it gives u chills, thrills n bad dreams.
anws point is sarah shahi is damn hot as a ghost.
i wonder wat i'll do if she haunted me. i'll be like horny n scared shitless at th same time. i'll just get wet from pee or cum HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
ok back to th point..can someone watch this episode w me?!???
ok thts probably th only interesting i'll blog abt fo today's post.
oh n some sad n irritating news.
1. i was asked to spend th day at sentosa w my 2nd family.
2. i was asked to share my testimony again during service on youth sunday.
3. next cwalk meet up will be meeting inno (jeff) at vivo.
sounds all pretty good n exciting yeh?
they all land on th same day. on th 13th july sunday.
1 n 2 in th morning. 3 in th afternoon.
bt u knw wat????
it all doesnt matter now. cos im going genting.
yesh i will be gone from th 12th-14th july as i mention b4.
so, im feeling happy n yet very sad im missing all tht.
n i so wanted to go cwalk in vivo )x
n i wanted to tan...
SIGHS. SIAN DIAO.
You see I am the bravest girl
You will ever come to meet
Yet i shrink down to nothing
At the thought of someone really seeing me
I think my heart is wrapped around
And tangled up in winding weeds
But I dont wanna go on living
Being so afraid of showing
Someone else my imperfections
And even though my feet are trembling
And everywhere they say I'm stumbling
I will bare it all... watch me unfold
Unfold
Thursday, June 26, 2008
...thts how i get by my days.
if anyone wanted to even knw...
am i depressed? no.
am i lonely? no.
am i insane? no.
wdv it is. th answer's no.
is this retarded talk? no.
bt like i said..tonight i wanna try to nt go tht side.
i hv no Life now. n by life..i mean nbc's Life.
in terms of th show. bt then again i reli hv no life.
bcos all im doing everyday is maths n sleep.
anws yeh back to talkin abt nbc's Life.
apparently th last week th episode i watched..WAS TH LAST.
last for season 1. n season 2 wont be out here anytime soon.
aaaaaaaahhhh n i was so lookin forward to weeks of Life.
it gives me a certain tiny joy to knw tht every week once a day fo an hour i get to see someone as gorgeous as sarah shahi. just fo th thrill of it.
it was th only damn thing i look forwards to right now.
cos like i said..my life is basically maths maths n sleep.
i dont hv th time to go out n enjoy anymore.
i dont hv th cash too.
so my mum has been paying fo my tuition fees.
i hate making her pay so much. bt i dont hv a choice.
anws th tution teachers r all from her office..her colleagues.
this guy name Gavin. he was suspose to teach me.
bt on th 1st day..there was change of plans..
n this guy name Tuan a vietnamese taught me instead.
why? cos his maths is good n faster than everyone else.
bt he cant teach fo nuts?
i endured 3 sessions of 2/3 hours with this joker.
n his vietnamese slang was helping.
we were either moving too bloody slow to complete anyth or too fast fo me to comprehend anything. IT SUCKED.
each night i went home boiling w anger n frustrated w stress.
however past 2 days i finally got Gavin to teach me.
n i tell u..this guy ROCKS. he's damn bloody good.
he teaches me at a right pace, we complete hmwk.
n i understand n rmb th things he teach cos he either makes it simple fo me or makes it funny to rmb (x
Gavin...best.
n so far..i think sarah is right.
i can do it. i can do maths.
right now i just dont hv enough time..crash course.
give me another week or 2 i can ace my assignments n cfm pass my exam.
bt no..this module is only fo a month.
n my mid term exam is tmr.
thankfully my assignment 2 is completed bt with a week's extension of th deadline -.-
do my best, let God do th rest (x
anws coming back to money..
my tickets n room are booked.
my family (4 of us) will be going to genting..
from th 13th -15th July.
dad's paying. he better be.
wat i intend to do there?
dance. enjoy cold weather. eat ALOT. casino. buy my new era caps.
i want to win like super jackpot on th JP machines.
if i win alot of money i'll take sarah fo a holiday in sri lanka this december. just an idea...
EDITTED----
im damn into Indian rap songs now lol.
shiet shiet. i like leh.
dno, mayb growing up in sri lanka..
im outside nigga, inside indian, backside chinese xD
im also damn into flo rida <3333
n colbie caillat n marie digby too.
bt flo rida out wins them (x lol.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
All I need is your touch
Wake me up with your lips
Come at me from up above, yeah
I need you.
I remember the way that you move
You're dancing easily through my dreams
It's hitting me harder and harder with all your smiles
You are crazy gentle in the way you kiss
)x
))x
yeh..sometimes it gets tiring struggling fo smth tht isnt there?
hmm i dno wat im talkin abt.
anyone knw how it feels to help th ppl arnd u.
bt th thing is, no matter how much u do fo anyone arnd u..
u cant ever achieved tht true happiness fo yrself or fo them?
it's tiring to face this dark dark world w optimism.
n everyone knws how good im doing.
how blessed my life is for me.
yeh thts true. nt denying tht of cos.
bt i guess no one reli knws tht there's alot of things wrong w me.
it's just all inside of me, behind my smiles.
oh how i love to be so strong fo others. so tht they hv a shoulder to lean on.
n oh how i carry on blindly ignoring how screwed up i become...
i guess just as everyone see's how alright i am.
thts how alright i see myself too.
only to notice during my dark n lonely days,
during th times i take a breather n think,
tht i realised on some levels im becoming more screwed up.
even if i ignore it.
ah screw it.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
no not fmss teachers.
th nbc tv series teachers (x
so i spent th whole morning of lastnight...
which technically means after coming back from meeting sarah n kel, blogging my last post, i sat infront of my com n just watched teachers on youtube!
shiok sia. th person who upload it..th vids gooood quality.
so anws, teachers..wats it abt? u guess it..teachers! lol.
it's a retarded show abt th life of teachers in a public sch.
like th things tht goes on behind scenes LOL.
watching th show made me wanna be a teacher too lah (x
BRO U SHLD GO WATCH IT. it's only 6 episodes LOL.
why leh? due to low ratings th show got cancelled HAHAHA.
so yeh they only reached to 6 episodes then gt cancelled.
thus i managed to watch all 6 episodes from youtube in one night!!!
why i watch th show? oh sarah shahi is in it xD
as well as it's a funny comedy kinda tv series which i like.
i prefer these kinda tv series than crime ones like csi etc.
so, im guessing as sarah LITHYA said, im nt reli gonna life nbc's Life.
EVEN IF SARAH SHAHI IS IN IT. btw she still rocks in Lword.
ah well teachers was fun. i enjoyed watching it.
only 6 episodes. fun lah hahaha. can finish so fast.
n lastnight my youtube connection was suuuupaaaa man!
im quite sad th show gt cancelled at 6 episodes tho.
bt then again..i can see why it got cancelled LOL.
if i was director..i wld hv just made sarah shahi lesbian all over again.
c'mon!! th ratings will increase!! (x [joke].
anyhow aside from th fun night i had watchin teachers n NOT THINKIN OF MATHS.
i had a damn shiet day today. slept n woke up fo tuition.
which yet again sucked, n drained me. i just finish doing hmwk.
bt yeh my assignments still nt completed..n already past deadline.
GOD HELP ME GET THRU THIS PLS /x
aside tht, tmr im gonna meet ernest n learn krumping w him xDDDD
this is gonna be great cos i can let out all my anger tmr during krumping.
i tell u past 3 nights i had anger boiling in me, it scared me /x
so yeh looking forward to tmr's krump session.
if it gets cancelled somehow..i'll be pissed LOL.
goodbye ppl.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
today im happy. haha i hv no idea why.
anws i woke up at 11am to watch life.
basically life is a nbc tv series based on crime.
it's abt a cop n his partner whom is sarah shahi (x
it shows every tues 9pm starworld.
bt ytd i went out at night n hung w my two buds.
i had tuition earlier. which sucked so bad. wont go into it.
then i met them fo dinner n we chat n danced abit LOL.
so anws back to today.
woke up to watch th repeat. I AM DISAPOINTED.
th show focuses alot on th main character..th cop.
n well sarah shahi isnt hot in it LOL. IN A WAY LAH.
im quite turned off by a policewoman outfit.
like cldnt she AT LEAST let down her hair? lol.
n she looks damnnnn old in life. LIKE MY AUNTY CAN!??
well anws i guess im happy to see life today.
HAHAHA. no idea why. it's nt wat u guys think -.-
or mayb there's smth RELI RELI wrong w me liao.
n im just pretending to ignore it.
OR. mayb ppl just dont understand me well enough.
bcos they cant be bothered of their selfish.
omg im talkin abt things ppl dont understand..AGAIN.
my two abangs were so sweet to come down n meet me tonight at sucha late hour to teach me maths. im toucheddd.
i love crapping w th two of them.
off focus lol.
JAMEN ROCKS ok.
down w sharmen. lol.
sarah u see wat u did to me? i cant slp tonight.
U BETTER RMB WAT U DID 2 YEARS AGO!!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
church. service was bad?
i cldnt stand th pastor. so bhb.
n well th sermon on father's day was boring.
plus i didnt agree w a single thing th pastor said.
i prefer our church's pastor..tho he's on hols lol.
anws...mum joined me at church. yay!
n then there was yf. i did my sharing.
it went alright. praying payed off.
as i got up, i suddenly lost my fear n wasnt nervous.
so tht was good. i hate being all shaky haha.
as for my vid? well i guess th song rocked th hse.
had alot of good comments regarding th vid.
which is great. i feel good n happy.
n all tht i receive, th praise..it all goes to Him.
this is for Him. bt yeh i hope th youths r inspired some way by my vid. cos thts my other aim.
so im reli thankful fo all th good comments given.
again, everyth goes up to Him (x
lunch w mum. great doing sharing.
we starting to think so much a like. thts awesome.
i love how close i am to her now. makes me happy.
anws yeh had good long chats w her.
then i was off to meet ernest at heeren.
there was a break dance competition there.
included was some poppin n lockin plus beatboxing.
shiok sia. th dj there rocked th place.
my ears n legs nearly wanna break liao haha.
bt yeh ahmazing skills from th competitors.
one guy break dance till his shoulders bled?!!
i had fun there. thanks to ernest who invited me.
after tht was father's day dinner w th family.
just th four of us. how retarded it always gets.
we ate at our usual ABC market..prawns, chicken n fish.
nice food. bt my bro was damn irritating lol.
they 3 drink tiger beer. i had abit of it mixed w sprite.
i seem like small girl lol. bt no thts nt it.
i just hate tiger. n i prefer a shandy to it.
ok im off, big day tmr. wrong. LONG day nt big.